Tension

Ngelu palak, pedis untak begulai enggau urang sut a.k.a enda nemu gawa. Nama ajak bisi pemandai tapi belik, muntad, banga, tambap. Manah agi ngasoh iya gawa di library unimas awak ka begulai enggau belik.

In Chemistry : He turned water into wine (John 2:9)...
In Biology : He was born of a virgin (Luke 1:34)...
In Physics : He overcame the law of gravity by ascending to heaven (Luke 24:51)...
In Economics : He multiplied and fed 5000 men (Matt 14:19)...
In History : He's the beginning and the end (Rev 21:6)...
In Politics : The goverment shall be upon His shoulder (Isa 9:6)...
In Religion : No one comes to God the Father except through Him (John 14:6)...

Today is a special day for all Christians around the world because of His sacrifice on the cross. I'm working today in the office because no public holiday during Good Friday at Selangor. Feel like crying when receive SMS from my sis wishing me have a blessed day today. Couldn't go to church to give thanks to Him. Anywhere, I will work with a thankful heart because of His unmeasured sacrificed to me. Thank you Lord, for what you did on the cross. Wishing all my families and friends have a blessed Good Friday and Easter Sunday. Never forget His love for us.

P/S : Anddy, nyabak aku...Bedusa aku pia?...

A year has gone...

Sedar tak sedar sudah setahun bah aku berada di Shah Alam a.k.a Semenanjung Malaysia. I officially arrived at this land on 31st March 2008 and start my working life on the 1st April 2008. Looking back there are so many experince that I need to thanks the Almighty.

I still remember last year how hard for me to came here. I almost reject this job and saying to myself "Biarlah aku dapat gaji kecik sekalipun yang penting aku tinggal di Sarawak". I don't understand and keep questioning Him with that stupid famous question, "Why?". I gave so many reason to my family why I shouldn't take this job but they never buy my bullshit. Worst came to worst Anddy also don't want to buy my bullshit. Akhirnya, aku terpaksa berserah walaupun dalam hati bukan senang nak menerima kenyataan. To make myself happy I told myself that I'm a risk taker person and I am taking risk for a new challenge in my life. But, that is not what I really want for myself.

A year has gone and time running very fast. In a year the Almighty continue to show me His faithfulness and mercy. There are new every morning. Okay, sometimes we are telling ourselves that my life is mine and God does not exist. But, as we go deeper it's hard to denying that He is truly there. And sometimes, that stupid famous question come again and I always compare myself to my non christian friend how easy their life are. Last time during youth age, it's easy to sing and accept that 'God is the strenght of my heart' but now it's more easy to question Him than to proclaim Him rite? Now, I realise that the more I question, I'm not satisfied with the things I have and the more I think about facts (rather than FAITH) actually made me become self-centre. Life is all about me, me and me but where is He in this precious life?

Father, forgive me for being such a selfish son and self-centre person. I can see that in everythings that happen to me it is You who want the best for me. You have a perfect plan for me eventhough I can't see it right now. Help me to let go my ego and to focus on You more rather than what I want for myself. I want to thank you for all the blessing that you've given me this year - stable job, house, church, new friends, new and exciting experince and the lists can go on... and also thank you Father for my family and friends all back home for their never ending support. How I miss them so much Father! Bless in whatever they are doing and never let them go from You. Strengthen me everyday so that I can learn to walk with You daily and let You carry me instead of stubbornly walking by myself. I love You dear Father. Thank you so much. In Jesus name, I say this prayer...AMEN!

Lamak dah sik update this blog. Very busy lately. March was a busy month for me as I need to attend multiple series of course. Start with 10 days of induction course and finish by 5 days of BTN. Fell very tired. I’ve almost forgot how’s weekend taste like. Almost forgot how it’s feel to wake up at 10 o’clock on Saturday morning. Thanks God it’s all over for this moment. Here are some pics that I would like to share with the rest of the world. I hate to say it but I think I like BTN.

This is our group members. Now back to office and my job are damm a lots...That's why I prefer to go out of this office rather than sit here...

Leeland - Tears of the Saint

Suddenly I remember this song and browse for the lyrics in the internet. As I listen to it over and over again on my pc, the melody become stuck in my head. Leeland is very nice Christian Rock Music nowadays. So, here I want to share Tears of the Saint lyrics with you guys:

There are many prodigal sons
On our city streets they run
Searching for shelter
There are homes broken down

People's hopes have fallen to the ground
From failures
This is an emergency!
There are tears from the saints
For the lost and unsaved
We're crying for them come back home
We're crying for them come back home
And all your children will stretch out their hands
And pick up the crippled man Father,
we will lead them home Father,
we will lead them home
There are schools full of hatred
Even churches have forsaken
Love and mercy
May we see this generation
In it's state of desperation
For Your glory
This is an emergency!
Sinner, reach out your hands!
Children in Christ you stand!
Sinner, reach out your hands!
Children in Christ you stand!
And all Your children will stretch out their hands
And pick up the crippled man
Father, we will lead them home
Father, we will lead them home

For me this song is very true. The church is losing it's grip because everyone in church want to live a comfortable life. It's all about me having blessed by God (self centred). I'm afraid that when the sinners start to reach out their hands there are no children in Christ will stand to give them a hand. This because he children in Christ are busy enjoying their blessing for themselves!

Still Feel Tired

Just coming back from induction course at Perak last weekend. Really tired and don't have enough rest this month. Next week will be going to Besut, Terengganu for BTN some more. Travel a lots this month and I dun know until when I can stand. How I wish can watch some movies such as Dragonball, Street Fighter or Geng.

Funny Ads

Hahaha...This is funny. I received an email today and a photo was attached with it. Just want to share with you the laughter. What do you think? Want to work as a kaya ball? I prefer work as a waffle or sweetcorn...

He Will Carry Me

HE ARRIVED THIS MORNING, WE HAD PRAYER; SPENT SOME TIME JUST TALKING, and HE HELD ME FOR AWHILE BECAUSE I WAS HAVING A BAD MORNING. THEN, HE WAS ON HIS WAY TO YOUR PLACE.

When He gets to your PC, escort Him to the next stop. Please don't allow Him to sleep on your PC. The message He is carrying is very important and needs to go round. May God bless you as you do this - AMEN.

Don't go Lord...Stay with me...

My Body Is Weak

I had this ‘Chikungunya’ fever. This is the first time I heard about this fever. It’s similar to dengue but not as dangerous as dengue.

This info I got from internet about this fever:-

Chikungunya (in the Makonde language "that which bends up") virus (CHIKV) is an insect-borne virus, of the genus, Alphavirus, that is transmitted to humans by virus-carrying Aedes mosquitoes.[1] There have been recent outbreaks of CHIKV associated with severe morbidity. CHIKV causes an illness with symptoms similar to dengue fever. CHIKV manifests itself with an acute febrile phase of the illness lasts only two to five days, followed by a prolonged arthralgic disease that affects the joints of the extremities. The pain associated with CHIKV infection of the joints persists for weeks or months.[2][3]
The incubation period of Chikungunya disease is from two to four days. Symptoms of the disease include a fever up to 40 °C (104 °F), a petechial or maculopapular rash of the trunk and occasionally the limbs, and arthralgia or arthritis affecting multiple joints.[4] Other nonspecific symptoms can include headache, conjunctival infection, and slight photophobia. Typically, the fever lasts for two days and then ends abruptly. However, other symptoms, namely joint pain, intense headache, insomnia and an extreme degree of prostration last for a variable period; usually for about 5 to 7 days.[4] Patients have complained of joint pains for much longer time periods depending on their age.[5][6]

When I went for blood test yesterday, my result was weak for dengue but they told me it’s Chikungunya. Though it’s not dangerous according to them but I still feel the pain in my weak body. I can’t sleep at night. Wake up restless in the morning and going to work today in weak body condition. It’s strange why today modern medical world don’t have any cure for this disease? Where is all the intelligent doctors gone? Or maybe there are no more intelligent doctors exist in this world...

Sorry, for my hard word to all the doctor. I’m just voicing up what inside my heart. My body is extremely weak when I manage to have only 2 hours sleep per day for the past 5 days. Hope this painful will end soon...

Allah Mengerti Allah Peduli

Banyak perkara yang tak dapat ku mengerti
Mengapakah harus terjadi di dalam kehidupan ini
Satu perkara yang ku simpan dalam ha-ti
Tiada satupun kan terjadi tanpa Allah peduli

Reff:
Allah mengerti Allah peduli
Segala persoalan yang kita hadapi
Tak akan pernah dibiarkanNya
Kubergumul sendiri s'bab Allah mengerti

Lagu ini memang selalu aku dengar sebelum ini. Dinyanyikan Jefry S. Tjandra dan beberapa orang penyanyi lain sebelum ini. Lagu ini juga pernah dinyanyikan di dalam kebaktian di gereja beberapa kali. Tapi terus terang aku mengatakan bahawa pada mulanya lagu ini ‘sound boring’ bagi aku. Melodinya yang terlalu slow dan kurang menarik. Tapi pada hari ini aku terjumpa mp3 lagu ini yang dinyanyikan oleh Agnes Monica dalam internet. Terus aku download lagu ini. Memang power dan menyentuh perasaan. Sampai sekarang aku terus memainkan lagu ini di PC ku....Those who would like to download the mp3 this is the website:-

http://www.4shared.com/file/31680966/2fc31fc2/Agnes_Monica_-_Allah_Peduli.html

Enjoy it...

Happy Chinese New Year

Wishing all friends and family 'Gong Xi Fatt Chai' and prosperous always in the year of ox...

Satu hal...

Satu hal yang kurindu
Berdiam di dalam rumahMu
Satu hal yang kupinta
Menikmati baitMu Tuhan

Lebih baik satu hari
Di pelataranMu
Daripada seribu tahun
Di tempat lain

Aku memujiMu
Aku menyembahMu
Kau Allah yang hidup
Dan menikmati semua kemurahanMu

Best tak lagu ni. Memang best kan? Salah satu lagu penyembahan yang aku suka. Masa kali pertama mendengar lagu ini dahulu aku menangis mengeluarkan air mata (waduh!). Bukan apa waktu itu baru lepas murtad seketika. Jadi apabila sibuk2 pergi ke gereja selepas zaman murtad seketika itu, mendengar lagu ini... ish..ish..ish... Hanya Bapa sahaja yang memahami hati dan perasaan aku time itu (or maybe Doris pun paham....)

Jadi sampai sekarang lagu ini masih melekat dalam hatiku ini. Pagi tadi semasa mendengar lagu ni kat office, keluar jugalah air mata. Perasaanku rinduku kepadaNya muncul semula....

A New Start

It's 2009 and one year older....

Went back for Christmas holiday recently and really having a good time in Kuching. The best time is Christmas Dinner on Christmas eve. This is the first time we were having Christmas dinner together as my family is non believer. PTL and believe that God will do somethings great in the life of my family. On the Christmas day itself I didn't go out and having a good time being alone.

I met lots of old friends this time. I met Fly and Celestia at church and Christina at watch night service. Wow, that is after 15 years I didn't met her. I also met with some old classmates from SMK Sungai Maong and glad to see them actually. Meeting all these peoples make me miss my golden years. Wish can have that time back....

Coming back to Shah Alam on the 4th January. Now back in office life come back to normal. No more holidays, no more remembering those golden years memories no more eating kolo mee. Anywhere and anyhow life must go on as usual because just like Irene told me, life is more precious than kolo mee...

Aku Tiada Jawapan

Aduh, tiket dah habis sampai Tuesday..... Lord, have mercy on me....

Perayaan Krismas di Grace TTDI Shah Alam

Semalam telah diadakan perayaan Krismas di Grace TTDI Shah Alam. Mengapa awal banget sih, ini kerana kebanyakkan ahli Grace TTDI adalah penduduk Sarawak dan Sabah dan mulai minggu ini mereka mula balik ke kampung halaman masing-masing (yes...balik kampung ooooo). Jadi Ps. Joe pun buat planning perayaan di sambut awal.

Walau pun awal tapi ini telah membangkitkan Christmas mood semua yang hadir. Tak sangka juga ramai yang hadir jikalau melihat kepada kebanyakkan student UiTM dah balik cuti. Yang hadir semuanya membawa hadiah masing-masing untuk acara pertukaran hadiah. Hadiah digalakkan membawa hadiah berupa kekal (nie kunci MyVi aku deh)...

Perayaan pada hari itu dimulai oleh team Pujian & Penyembahan yang dipimpin oleh Sdri. Almari. Pada waktu itu lampu telah dipadam (bukan digelapkan tetapi dipadam terus) oleh Sereni yang sedia menunggu untuk memadam suis lampu. So, lampu dipadamkan dan lilin dinyalakan sekaligus jemaah dibawa menyanyikan lagu Malam Kudus. Wow, sungguh terharu apabila menyanyikan lagu malam kudus. Bayangkan 2000 tahun yang lalu dalam keadaan malam yang sunyi sepi tiba2 Kristus dilahirkan di Betlehem. Kehadirannya mengejutkan para gembala pada waktu itu. Semua bersemangat menyanyikan lagu tersebut kecuali aku yang sibuk mengatur camera phone aku “Nama flash tuk enggai nyadi deh?....”

Selepas habis kami menyanyikan lagu ‘Malam Kudus’ lampu pun dibuka semula oleh jurulampu Sereni. Dan gereja pun dalam suasana terang macam biasa. Waktu itu, nyanyian Christmas terus dinyanyikan dengan lagu Dunia Gemar Dan Bersoraklah (Joy to the world), Glorio in elcelxis deo. Kemudian masuk ke lagu penyembahan pula ‘Tinggikan DiriMu’. Memang best dan evergreen lagu tu. The 1st time I heard this song was year 1997, when my sister gave me the very 1st GMB’s album ‘Ku bri yang terbaik’ for Christmas present. And till now we still singing it as our worship to God. Beautiful song.... Selesai sahaja lagu itu kami terus menyanyikan lagu feliz navidad.....

Acara pada pagi itu diteruskan dengan ucapan selamat hari Krismas 2008 daripada Ps. Joe. Kemudian dengan acara yang memang diminati ramai iaitu pertukaran hadiah. Yang menariknya selalunya pertukaran hadiah ini hanya khas untuk kanak2 sahaja. Tapi kali ini pertukaran hadiah melibatkan orang tuai sekali. Seronok apabila melihat orang tua dapat hadiah. Rasanya orang tua lagi seronok dapat hadiah daripada kanak2.

Selepas pertukaran hadiah habis, acara diteruskan dengan khutbah oleh Ps. Joe. Sebelum Ps memulakan messagenya hari itu kami menyanyikan lagu We are the reason (Dalam BM). Lagu ini pun best juga, so saya post sekali liriknya untuk renungan bersama....

KARENA KITADavid Meece

WAKTU KECIL KITA MERINDUKAN NATAL

HADIAH YANG INDAH DAN MENAWAN

NAMUN TAK MENYADARI SEORANG BAYI T'LAH LAHIR

BAWA KES'LAMATAN 'TUK MANUSIA

WAKTU PUN BERLALU DAN KITA PUN TAHU

ANUG'RAH YANG BESAR DARI BAPA

YANG RELAKAN ANAK-NYA DISIKSA DAN DISALIBKAN

DI BUKIT KALVARI KAR'NA KASIH

REFF:

KARENA KITA DIA MENDERITA

KARENA KITA DIA DISALIBKAN

AGAR DUNIA YANG HILANG DISELAMATKAN

DARI HUKUMAN KEKAL

BRIDGE :

T'LAH KUDAPATI JALAN KEHIDUPAN

TATKALA KUBUKAKAN HATIKU BAGI DIA

DALAM UCAPANKU, DALAM SEGALANYAKU S'LALU MEMUJI DIA...

PUJI DIA...

Sebelum saya meneruskan, saya ingin mengucapkan terima kasih kepada Tuhan Yesus Kristus kerana atas apa yang Dia telah lakukan kepada saya. Terima kasih Yesus, kerana saya Tuhan datang ke dunia ini dan merelakan diriNya disalib....

Ps Joe berkhutbah mengenai makna Krismas pada pagi itu. Semua mendengar dengan khusyuk tapi saya pasti ada juga yang tak sabar dengan makanan tu. J Khutbah pagi itu mengenangkan kembali kasih Tuhan kepada manusia. Memang susah hati aku mun mengingat kasih Tuhan. Akai, ka nyabak ajak....

Begitulah acara pada hari itu. Memang menarik kan? Simple tapi berjaya melahirkan semangat Krismas pada semua anak2 muda yang berada jauh di perantauan (cheh, macam lah semua sik balit..sedangkan muka yalah no.1 nak balit rumah)....

Oh lupa satu hal, semasa hari baik bulan baik itu pula Alma telah menyempurnakan pengumumannya akan berpindah ke KL pada tahun depan. Alma menangis dengan sebak. Macam lah KL tu jauh. Macam Akademi Fantasia pulak ada yang terkeluar dan ada yang menangis....

This is my Christmas present...Hahaha...

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2008

All this things remind me of all the Christmas Party that I had during my youth years.....Hoh.....

Recommended Christian Website

Thanks to this website I can listen and even download to some nice lagu rohani. Some of the songs remind me of the days of my youth. Lots of old gospel song also available at this website. Nak download senang saja, just register or open your account with them and now you can download. Just like what the label said “Biarlah segala yang bernafas memuji Tuhan, Amen!”

This is the address www.lightgeneration.com










Another interesting website is http://www.anakdomba.com/. This is Buatan Malaysia website. Not many songs can be found here but this website is good to post any announcement of what’s happening in our church etc. Those Malaysian who design this website should be given credits for their effort.

Cuti?

Finally, Pengarah agree to approve my long christmas leave (two weeks – is that long enough?). Tapi macam biasalah apabila cuti aku diluluskan sedangkan cuti orang lain semua dibekukan adalah unsur-unsur yang tidak puas hati berbunyi di belakang tandas. Cakap itu dan ini. Aku tak peduli apa yang korang nak cakap. Kalau korang pandai cakap itu dan ini kenapa tidak masuk radio Era segmen ‘Itu dan Ini’?

It’s okay, as long as I know I am capable to finish all my fiscal year 2008 job it is enough. Word is just a word. Just setakat cakap belakang takkan membunuh betul tak. For those friends in Kuching really looking forward to meet up with you guys soon.

Okay, nak balik dah. Semua dah balik dan macam biasalah kerja aku adalah mengunci office. See you around!

Color Personality Test

I did this colour personality quiz from the internet today and below is the answer that I get. I don’t know how true it is to me. But there are some points that can describe myself. Maybe it’s something that I want to be or something I believe what I am. Or maybe it’s not even true or didn’t describe me at all. When I was in PLKN last time, I remember my trainer always said, “The trainees are always your mirror.” Okay, that is so true at that moment but now who is my mirror actually? My workers? Emm, I always can get a mirror from Tesco. Hahahaha….. How well can we know and evaluate ourself?

Yesterday, I like what this young simple guy told me. Actually, he is only our office boys and he’s only 21 years old. Ceritanya macam ini, dia try nak tackle this I can consider beautiful girl lar. So, macam tak betul kalau dia nampak this beautiful girl. So, the conversation between 3 of us goes like this:- (Fiza is his S.O and this guy name is Pojie)

Fiza : Eleh, muka tak handsome ada hati nak tackle perempuan cantik.

Me : Handsome tu tak penting sekarang. Banyak perempuan cantik kat luar tu pilih lelaki yang tak handsome (macam ada pengalaman je..hehehe).

Fiza : Yalah, mereka tu tak handsome tapi banyak duit. Korang ni apa yang ada?

Pojie : Takpe Cik Fiza dan Encik Frankie. Duit dan harta tu tak penting kerana benda tu kita boleh create.......

Fuyoh, power lah ayat kau Pojie. Respek lah dengan kau. Hahahaha....

Yes, there are many things I can create in my life everyday. Not only ‘things’ but also values as long as I am aware of the choices that I made every minutes. Sometime I tend to forget that I am responsible to create the result of what I want to be in my life. What I am today is the result that I have created long time ago but what I will be in the future is base on my choice today. The question is, what am I committed to create today?

Thanks Pojie atas ayat power kau. Semua yang berlaku dalam kehidupan kita boleh kita create. Selagi kita ada komitmen untuk create keputusan yang kita inginkan. Yang menentukan segalanya adalah SIKAP kita....


Color Personality Test:-

When you are at peace, you are:

Energized and innovative – aku energized kah? Mun at peace selalunya aku akan Rest In Peace (tido) juak.

When you are moved to act, you are:

Giving and warm – yes, God love a cheerful giver…

When you are inspired, you are:

Spontaneous and adventurous – depend on the things that inspired me? What if that things make me wanna sleep. Hahaha… I can be spontaneous sometimes especially masa berkawan dengan Ronie dolok…Hahaha…Bila kau nak datang KL tok Nie?

When your life is perfectly balanced, you are:

Totally in the moment – When my life is perfectly balanced I always thanks He’s the one who make my life perfectly balance all the time. Thank you God!

Your life's purpose is:

To change the world – Yes, I want to change the world. I want to make a different. Jadi macam cerita “Death Notes – L Changed The World”

Start All Over

Emm..Just want to start again this blog after not updating for years. Nasib masih aktif. All this while I'm active blogging with friendster but I thought only those in that group only read my blog. Now, try to go globally. Feel challenge to write again after reading Dollina blog. Rasa tercabar aku dengan Dollina pun ada blog juga. Hope to write some more later. See you soon.

Selamat Hari Raya...

Well...back to blog...I never use this blog before but since my blog-city account has been shut down, I need to use this blog...

Kumpulan 3 telah berakhir dengan rasminya pada 1 Oktober 2005. Walaupun hari tersebut merupakan hari yang cukup menyedihkan tetapi saya harus belajar untuk melepaskan pelatih-pelatih saya untuk bebas berlari. Kumpulan 3 is so special because this is the first group I teach 3 modules in the same camp. Really missed my student...Neng, Duan, A.J, Rayns, Manai, Michael, Augustine, Jaha, Nelson, Henry, Hiew, Ros, Jai, U-Ko, Nazirah, Eta, Ivy, Nancy & Diyai. There are all so special. I'm having a good time teaching them all this while. I won't forget those bunch of kids for the rest of my life.