Four Years Have Gone

Ya, four years have gone. Four years of my life here in Shah Alam. Let's recap what happen last four years...

31 March 2008 is the most miserable time of my life. I'm leaving on Airasia flight to Kuala Lumpur with so many questions in my life. This is the time when I asked Him, "Why, why and why". Why I need to come to this place. Why I need to follow Your will. Why Your will is so hard to follow. Why You never care for my feeling. Why You finally answered my prayer but this is not I wish for in my life. I can't say let Your will be done in my life. I don't want to do Your will. That is the question that I asked Him while I'm sitting on the flight. I cried before Him many times before I left. I told Him I don't want to do this. I told Him please let me choose my own way instead of following His way. I pray, I cried before Him but He just keep silent.

Today, after four years have gone I thanks Him for that day. I thanks Him for my family and friends who encourage me to step forward and moving out of my comfort zone. I thanks Him for bringing me here at Shah Alam. I've learn a lots since the day I left Kuching until now. My walk with Him is much closer than when I was in Kuching. I have so many opportunity to learn new things here. I learn to serve Him more and doing more for the Kingdom of God. I've learn to say more of You and less of me. And the most important things is I've learn to say the prayer just like Jesus said "Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done."

Following His way is not easy and we need to carry the cross in doing so. We need to learn how to deny our own will and put our faith in Him. But doing His will is the best part of our life. He know what is the best for us. He know it better than us. He know everything and He love us so much and want the best in our life. We may fail to see that in the beginning but at the end we will be thankful to Him because He made it beautiful in His time.

Father, I want to thank you for not letting me down. I want to thank you for all the blessings in my life. I want to thank you because You prepare the best for me. I want to thank you for my family and friends that You have put in my life because You know that these are the peoples who going to help me to walk according to Your way. And I want to thank you for giving me the best in my life. You are truly amazing Lord. Thank you again and again Jesus. Amen!