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Good Morning

So lamak sudah tidak mengepost... Hampir kehilangan password... Just wanna shout 'good morning' to this blog setelah sekian lama.

Hopefully will be active again after this...

God is good, all the time
All the time, God is good

1 April 2013

1 April 2013. Again and again I survive another year. It is five years now since the day I'm leaving on the jet plane. Hahahaha... It is really by God's grace and mercy I'm still here and doing His will. Thank you Lord for making my life count. Thank you again for using me and for not giving up on me. Word can't express my feeling but my soul will always sing for your greatness and mercy. Love you Papa J...

My Born Day

It's my born day again. I would like to give thanks to Jesus for giving me everything that I need. I can't imagine life without Him. I would like to thanks my parent for bringing me up, I know it's not easy to raise me but mummy and daddy manage to raise me until I become what I am today. To my dearest sisters and brother, thank you so much for your love. I may not express how much I love all of you with my word but believe me deep in my heart I love you all so much. To all my friends (long list of friends) thanks for color my life. Every step of my journey become so meaningful because each one of you choose to be in my heart. Not to forget, I would like to thanks the late Pastor Harry my spiritual father for every valuable lessons you had place in my heart. I will always remember that.... I would like to share what Dollina wrote in my wall today...

Thank you so much Do. I couldn't imagine what my youth day would be without you, Fly, Audrey, Anddy, Hinly and the rest of the gang... You are truly a blessing.... Yeah, I'm so grateful today.....

Anugerah Perkhidmatan Cemerlang 2012

Nak masukkan gambar APC 2012 yang telah diadakan di PICC pada 22 Mei 2012. 

Yang lain, lenkali aku masukkan okay!

Four Years Have Gone

Ya, four years have gone. Four years of my life here in Shah Alam. Let's recap what happen last four years...

31 March 2008 is the most miserable time of my life. I'm leaving on Airasia flight to Kuala Lumpur with so many questions in my life. This is the time when I asked Him, "Why, why and why". Why I need to come to this place. Why I need to follow Your will. Why Your will is so hard to follow. Why You never care for my feeling. Why You finally answered my prayer but this is not I wish for in my life. I can't say let Your will be done in my life. I don't want to do Your will. That is the question that I asked Him while I'm sitting on the flight. I cried before Him many times before I left. I told Him I don't want to do this. I told Him please let me choose my own way instead of following His way. I pray, I cried before Him but He just keep silent.

Today, after four years have gone I thanks Him for that day. I thanks Him for my family and friends who encourage me to step forward and moving out of my comfort zone. I thanks Him for bringing me here at Shah Alam. I've learn a lots since the day I left Kuching until now. My walk with Him is much closer than when I was in Kuching. I have so many opportunity to learn new things here. I learn to serve Him more and doing more for the Kingdom of God. I've learn to say more of You and less of me. And the most important things is I've learn to say the prayer just like Jesus said "Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done."

Following His way is not easy and we need to carry the cross in doing so. We need to learn how to deny our own will and put our faith in Him. But doing His will is the best part of our life. He know what is the best for us. He know it better than us. He know everything and He love us so much and want the best in our life. We may fail to see that in the beginning but at the end we will be thankful to Him because He made it beautiful in His time.

Father, I want to thank you for not letting me down. I want to thank you for all the blessings in my life. I want to thank you because You prepare the best for me. I want to thank you for my family and friends that You have put in my life because You know that these are the peoples who going to help me to walk according to Your way. And I want to thank you for giving me the best in my life. You are truly amazing Lord. Thank you again and again Jesus. Amen!

Good morning Malaysia

Just wanted to say 'hi'. Been a long time not updating my blog here. Life was so busy and every single minute is so precious. During this time really miss my family. Wish I am with them now so that the can comfort me and always give me advise. When we were together we always took the time we had for granted. When we were apart then we appreciate those  time. Wish I can fly back home now.

“My thoughts are completely different from yours,” says the LORD. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. (Isaiah 55:8) NLT

We always want to walk in our own ways. That make we fell disapointed most of the time when things didn't work out as we expected. When it happen, we always play blame games and sometimes worst come to worst we blame Him for not taking care of us. But we forgot that our ways is not His ways and His ways are far more better than our ways. God loves us so much until He already plan everything for us before we even born. He knows what the best for us. We just failed to see or we don't want to see the truth at all. It even hard for me to accept God's way in my life but as I walk and put my trust in Him, I believe He know what is the best for me.

God love never change. People may change but He still the same. He is Alpha and Omega, Beginning and the End. He is everlasting and great big God. He is our creator. That the reason why we can't see His big ways. Just walk with Him and put our trust in Him. In the end of the day, when our ways didn't work out as we expected remember that we still have hope in Him.

Weekends

3 days exciting weekends is over. How I miss the weekends! So dammed good! Wahlau eh... What did I do last weekends!

1st May (Friday)
First, I need to mention here that my nephew is staying with me for a while. Wake up around 10am and then do some house cleaning. OMG, banyaknya debu. Make me think when was my last cleaning. Hahaha... Then, I prepared some lunch - telur goreng, sausage and mee goreng (nyum..nyum..). Taste delicious. In the evening, we went to Sunway Pyramid for window shopping. But the fun thing is laughing at how peoples dress up nowadays. Hahaha... Funny lar... I dun mind if ppls say I'm out dated but I'm not going to dress like the kids nowadays. Plan to watch 'Wolverine' at night but the ticket is full. Wow, macam goreng pisang panas. We had our dinner at KFC walaupun I'm sick of KFC but my nephew never sick of it... Going back home after had our dinner.

2nd May
Wake up around 10am but so lazy to get up from my bed. Lying on the bed and think abt life. Wow, so many things to think about. But who cares! As long as I enjoy myself at the moment kan? My nephew pulak sibuk bercerita siapa akan keluar AF malam ini. He's very Hafizistic (now, where did I get that word?) and worried if Hafiz cannot get into final. I told him dun worry, Hafiz will get into the final (it is Claudia that I worry about). Then we went to Berjaya Times Square and Bukit Bintang. When we reach Berjaya Times Square I was surprised because they were having great discount sales! Apa lagi aku pun sibuk jugak memilih pakaian because the discount is so dammed good. Manage to get few shirts for myself... Hahaha... We went to watch 'Wolverine' and manage to get the ticket walaupun terpaksa queue up about 45 min. OMG, sakit kaki aku. But it's worth queue up the long line because that movie is a good one. After the movie, we had our dinner at KFC (OMG, again...) because once again my nephew want to eat KFC. Forcing myself to eat that chicken... Going back home and manage to watch AF and said to see Claudia and Aishah have to go home tonight. Both are talented presenter for me. Surprise when Tiara announce abt AFUNDI Masuk. Here they goes again, nak masukkan siapa pulak? Aril? That poyo guy... Peduli apa aku... Went to bed quite late around 4am I think because cannot sleep due to the hot climate.

3rd May
Sunday - woke up very late, around 11am. Nah, I missed the church service this week. Woke up and watch 611-astro ceria. My nephew pulak can't stop talking about Hafiz doing great act as P.Ramlee the night before. He's so Hafizistic. Well, I do like Hafiz but I dun talk abt Hafiz all the times. Janji bahagia... Eat maggi mee for lunch coz I love the assam laksa flavor. OMG, thanks God for maggi! Evening, we're having our dinner at Tesco. I ate ikan kembung bakar and it's is awesome! My nephew pulak tak puas hati coz he tot that mee laksa asam is the same as our Sarawak Laksa. He can't stop complaint abt it but at least it can make him talk about Hafiz for a few minutes! Hahahaha.... Going back home and watch 'Smallville' latest seasons. After 'Smallville' went to sleep but can't sleep well because I can sensed Monday is coming.....

4th May
OMG...OMG...OMG...It's real, it's Monday...Kerja kerja dan kerja...OMG...It's Monday...

A year has gone...

Sedar tak sedar sudah setahun bah aku berada di Shah Alam a.k.a Semenanjung Malaysia. I officially arrived at this land on 31st March 2008 and start my working life on the 1st April 2008. Looking back there are so many experince that I need to thanks the Almighty.

I still remember last year how hard for me to came here. I almost reject this job and saying to myself "Biarlah aku dapat gaji kecik sekalipun yang penting aku tinggal di Sarawak". I don't understand and keep questioning Him with that stupid famous question, "Why?". I gave so many reason to my family why I shouldn't take this job but they never buy my bullshit. Worst came to worst Anddy also don't want to buy my bullshit. Akhirnya, aku terpaksa berserah walaupun dalam hati bukan senang nak menerima kenyataan. To make myself happy I told myself that I'm a risk taker person and I am taking risk for a new challenge in my life. But, that is not what I really want for myself.

A year has gone and time running very fast. In a year the Almighty continue to show me His faithfulness and mercy. There are new every morning. Okay, sometimes we are telling ourselves that my life is mine and God does not exist. But, as we go deeper it's hard to denying that He is truly there. And sometimes, that stupid famous question come again and I always compare myself to my non christian friend how easy their life are. Last time during youth age, it's easy to sing and accept that 'God is the strenght of my heart' but now it's more easy to question Him than to proclaim Him rite? Now, I realise that the more I question, I'm not satisfied with the things I have and the more I think about facts (rather than FAITH) actually made me become self-centre. Life is all about me, me and me but where is He in this precious life?

Father, forgive me for being such a selfish son and self-centre person. I can see that in everythings that happen to me it is You who want the best for me. You have a perfect plan for me eventhough I can't see it right now. Help me to let go my ego and to focus on You more rather than what I want for myself. I want to thank you for all the blessing that you've given me this year - stable job, house, church, new friends, new and exciting experince and the lists can go on... and also thank you Father for my family and friends all back home for their never ending support. How I miss them so much Father! Bless in whatever they are doing and never let them go from You. Strengthen me everyday so that I can learn to walk with You daily and let You carry me instead of stubbornly walking by myself. I love You dear Father. Thank you so much. In Jesus name, I say this prayer...AMEN!

Leeland - Tears of the Saint

Suddenly I remember this song and browse for the lyrics in the internet. As I listen to it over and over again on my pc, the melody become stuck in my head. Leeland is very nice Christian Rock Music nowadays. So, here I want to share Tears of the Saint lyrics with you guys:

There are many prodigal sons
On our city streets they run
Searching for shelter
There are homes broken down

People's hopes have fallen to the ground
From failures
This is an emergency!
There are tears from the saints
For the lost and unsaved
We're crying for them come back home
We're crying for them come back home
And all your children will stretch out their hands
And pick up the crippled man Father,
we will lead them home Father,
we will lead them home
There are schools full of hatred
Even churches have forsaken
Love and mercy
May we see this generation
In it's state of desperation
For Your glory
This is an emergency!
Sinner, reach out your hands!
Children in Christ you stand!
Sinner, reach out your hands!
Children in Christ you stand!
And all Your children will stretch out their hands
And pick up the crippled man
Father, we will lead them home
Father, we will lead them home

For me this song is very true. The church is losing it's grip because everyone in church want to live a comfortable life. It's all about me having blessed by God (self centred). I'm afraid that when the sinners start to reach out their hands there are no children in Christ will stand to give them a hand. This because he children in Christ are busy enjoying their blessing for themselves!

Still Feel Tired

Just coming back from induction course at Perak last weekend. Really tired and don't have enough rest this month. Next week will be going to Besut, Terengganu for BTN some more. Travel a lots this month and I dun know until when I can stand. How I wish can watch some movies such as Dragonball, Street Fighter or Geng.

Funny Ads

Hahaha...This is funny. I received an email today and a photo was attached with it. Just want to share with you the laughter. What do you think? Want to work as a kaya ball? I prefer work as a waffle or sweetcorn...

He Will Carry Me

HE ARRIVED THIS MORNING, WE HAD PRAYER; SPENT SOME TIME JUST TALKING, and HE HELD ME FOR AWHILE BECAUSE I WAS HAVING A BAD MORNING. THEN, HE WAS ON HIS WAY TO YOUR PLACE.

When He gets to your PC, escort Him to the next stop. Please don't allow Him to sleep on your PC. The message He is carrying is very important and needs to go round. May God bless you as you do this - AMEN.

Don't go Lord...Stay with me...

My Body Is Weak

I had this ‘Chikungunya’ fever. This is the first time I heard about this fever. It’s similar to dengue but not as dangerous as dengue.

This info I got from internet about this fever:-

Chikungunya (in the Makonde language "that which bends up") virus (CHIKV) is an insect-borne virus, of the genus, Alphavirus, that is transmitted to humans by virus-carrying Aedes mosquitoes.[1] There have been recent outbreaks of CHIKV associated with severe morbidity. CHIKV causes an illness with symptoms similar to dengue fever. CHIKV manifests itself with an acute febrile phase of the illness lasts only two to five days, followed by a prolonged arthralgic disease that affects the joints of the extremities. The pain associated with CHIKV infection of the joints persists for weeks or months.[2][3]
The incubation period of Chikungunya disease is from two to four days. Symptoms of the disease include a fever up to 40 °C (104 °F), a petechial or maculopapular rash of the trunk and occasionally the limbs, and arthralgia or arthritis affecting multiple joints.[4] Other nonspecific symptoms can include headache, conjunctival infection, and slight photophobia. Typically, the fever lasts for two days and then ends abruptly. However, other symptoms, namely joint pain, intense headache, insomnia and an extreme degree of prostration last for a variable period; usually for about 5 to 7 days.[4] Patients have complained of joint pains for much longer time periods depending on their age.[5][6]

When I went for blood test yesterday, my result was weak for dengue but they told me it’s Chikungunya. Though it’s not dangerous according to them but I still feel the pain in my weak body. I can’t sleep at night. Wake up restless in the morning and going to work today in weak body condition. It’s strange why today modern medical world don’t have any cure for this disease? Where is all the intelligent doctors gone? Or maybe there are no more intelligent doctors exist in this world...

Sorry, for my hard word to all the doctor. I’m just voicing up what inside my heart. My body is extremely weak when I manage to have only 2 hours sleep per day for the past 5 days. Hope this painful will end soon...

Allah Mengerti Allah Peduli

Banyak perkara yang tak dapat ku mengerti
Mengapakah harus terjadi di dalam kehidupan ini
Satu perkara yang ku simpan dalam ha-ti
Tiada satupun kan terjadi tanpa Allah peduli

Reff:
Allah mengerti Allah peduli
Segala persoalan yang kita hadapi
Tak akan pernah dibiarkanNya
Kubergumul sendiri s'bab Allah mengerti

Lagu ini memang selalu aku dengar sebelum ini. Dinyanyikan Jefry S. Tjandra dan beberapa orang penyanyi lain sebelum ini. Lagu ini juga pernah dinyanyikan di dalam kebaktian di gereja beberapa kali. Tapi terus terang aku mengatakan bahawa pada mulanya lagu ini ‘sound boring’ bagi aku. Melodinya yang terlalu slow dan kurang menarik. Tapi pada hari ini aku terjumpa mp3 lagu ini yang dinyanyikan oleh Agnes Monica dalam internet. Terus aku download lagu ini. Memang power dan menyentuh perasaan. Sampai sekarang aku terus memainkan lagu ini di PC ku....Those who would like to download the mp3 this is the website:-

http://www.4shared.com/file/31680966/2fc31fc2/Agnes_Monica_-_Allah_Peduli.html

Enjoy it...

Satu hal...

Satu hal yang kurindu
Berdiam di dalam rumahMu
Satu hal yang kupinta
Menikmati baitMu Tuhan

Lebih baik satu hari
Di pelataranMu
Daripada seribu tahun
Di tempat lain

Aku memujiMu
Aku menyembahMu
Kau Allah yang hidup
Dan menikmati semua kemurahanMu

Best tak lagu ni. Memang best kan? Salah satu lagu penyembahan yang aku suka. Masa kali pertama mendengar lagu ini dahulu aku menangis mengeluarkan air mata (waduh!). Bukan apa waktu itu baru lepas murtad seketika. Jadi apabila sibuk2 pergi ke gereja selepas zaman murtad seketika itu, mendengar lagu ini... ish..ish..ish... Hanya Bapa sahaja yang memahami hati dan perasaan aku time itu (or maybe Doris pun paham....)

Jadi sampai sekarang lagu ini masih melekat dalam hatiku ini. Pagi tadi semasa mendengar lagu ni kat office, keluar jugalah air mata. Perasaanku rinduku kepadaNya muncul semula....

Color Personality Test

I did this colour personality quiz from the internet today and below is the answer that I get. I don’t know how true it is to me. But there are some points that can describe myself. Maybe it’s something that I want to be or something I believe what I am. Or maybe it’s not even true or didn’t describe me at all. When I was in PLKN last time, I remember my trainer always said, “The trainees are always your mirror.” Okay, that is so true at that moment but now who is my mirror actually? My workers? Emm, I always can get a mirror from Tesco. Hahahaha….. How well can we know and evaluate ourself?

Yesterday, I like what this young simple guy told me. Actually, he is only our office boys and he’s only 21 years old. Ceritanya macam ini, dia try nak tackle this I can consider beautiful girl lar. So, macam tak betul kalau dia nampak this beautiful girl. So, the conversation between 3 of us goes like this:- (Fiza is his S.O and this guy name is Pojie)

Fiza : Eleh, muka tak handsome ada hati nak tackle perempuan cantik.

Me : Handsome tu tak penting sekarang. Banyak perempuan cantik kat luar tu pilih lelaki yang tak handsome (macam ada pengalaman je..hehehe).

Fiza : Yalah, mereka tu tak handsome tapi banyak duit. Korang ni apa yang ada?

Pojie : Takpe Cik Fiza dan Encik Frankie. Duit dan harta tu tak penting kerana benda tu kita boleh create.......

Fuyoh, power lah ayat kau Pojie. Respek lah dengan kau. Hahahaha....

Yes, there are many things I can create in my life everyday. Not only ‘things’ but also values as long as I am aware of the choices that I made every minutes. Sometime I tend to forget that I am responsible to create the result of what I want to be in my life. What I am today is the result that I have created long time ago but what I will be in the future is base on my choice today. The question is, what am I committed to create today?

Thanks Pojie atas ayat power kau. Semua yang berlaku dalam kehidupan kita boleh kita create. Selagi kita ada komitmen untuk create keputusan yang kita inginkan. Yang menentukan segalanya adalah SIKAP kita....


Color Personality Test:-

When you are at peace, you are:

Energized and innovative – aku energized kah? Mun at peace selalunya aku akan Rest In Peace (tido) juak.

When you are moved to act, you are:

Giving and warm – yes, God love a cheerful giver…

When you are inspired, you are:

Spontaneous and adventurous – depend on the things that inspired me? What if that things make me wanna sleep. Hahaha… I can be spontaneous sometimes especially masa berkawan dengan Ronie dolok…Hahaha…Bila kau nak datang KL tok Nie?

When your life is perfectly balanced, you are:

Totally in the moment – When my life is perfectly balanced I always thanks He’s the one who make my life perfectly balance all the time. Thank you God!

Your life's purpose is:

To change the world – Yes, I want to change the world. I want to make a different. Jadi macam cerita “Death Notes – L Changed The World”